THE CENTER OF FIRE!!! For the past two weeks, my boss has expressed her wishes that an employee wasnt working out and it was my job to deliver the blow or should I say be the hatchet. Wish I was like Donald Trump and was unfazed when those words Youre fired uttered from my mouth but I have to keep these posts real and I have come to the decision firing people is not my forte. The pangs of pain I caused another person (although I have to admit it was an uneasy sort of peace to let her go) and then that person turning on me, demanding to know why and how could I right before the holidays forced me to look at this dynamic and ask myself how I could perfect this part of my job. Being the optimist that I am, I had this wishful feeling that she would agree this situation was not the right fit for her, but instead, she became angry, bitter and verbally abusive. Standing my ground, I made it clear we had to part ways repeating in my head A Course in Miracles words We are never upset for the reasons we think. On Friday I left for the weekend a little shaken but resolute the firing had to be done and everyone would get over it. Went to bed still aching over the event and hoping by morning it would be a whole new day, sunshine and all. Woke up today to thick fog (what a metaphor) and a chill in the air...Need I say more? The Universe wasnt letting me off that easy. My heart told me I needed some major family time. My daughter, Candace Feldman and her fiancé, Lee Wald invited me to lunch and a movie and although I was still weighed down with the memory of Fridays drama, I accepted their invitation and it was just what the doctor (or should I say God) ordered. Why is it that the negative moments mean more and stay with us longer than the sweetness of pure, unconditional love our families and close friends show us? The simple activity of driving a few blocks to the shopping center in Marina del Rey, having a fun and talkative lunch, sharing our lives and thoughts with each other, then enjoying a movie together...hugging and kissing each other goodbye, I thought to myself, What a great Saturday. I couldnt have planned it better. I came home uplifted and whole again. My caring friend who lives with me was cooking a yummy, healthy dinner and was eager to hear about my family time and listened to me with an open mind and loving heart. MORE LOVE !!! It felt so good, so warm, so right. The perfect salve to heal the hearts pain, mine or theirs, without trying to hide it or fix it. But to see the beauty in each other, committed to stand in the center of fire with each other no matter what. I can still choose to let my heart feel sorrow for another one of Gods children who, I pray, will find the perfect job where she will be happy and concurrently I can choose to stay in joy and gratitude that I have been blessed with the gift of family and close friends who truly love me and I them. Sweet dreams...
Posted on: Sun, 27 Oct 2013 02:36:20 +0000
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