Testimony! I will do this in parts because it is so much to say. I have not worked since 2013 when my job at the health department ended due to the grant I worked under not renewed. I asked God to not let me clock in anyone elses job but allow me to boost my businesses instead. I had my days when things looked up but things went sour for a time span I will call dry season. They say be careful what you ask for because you may just get it. One thing for sure I didnt have to beg, borrow or steal. My provider made a way for my mortgage to get paid, my car note paid, TimeWarner, Water, Duke Energy, Insurance and T-Mobile got their just due. When I feel strapped I run. I ran away from church for two reasons, someone in the church and my flesh. I told my Pastor I am a runner when I get...and he said You go into the wilderness like Jesus did. I never thought of it that way. My mouth is one to reckon with so I fall back out of self respect until i get there. I knew a lot of the things I was doing was not pleasing yet we know sin feels good. My joy turned to temporary happiness and I began pondering my position as a woman once again. Why are things not working out for my good I asked myself, I knew why and God showed me and I knew It was time for a change. Tipping the scales listening to everyone else problems and no one knew my inner peace was screaming for anyone to save me from myself. Contemplating my next move and would burst out crying for a reason but would only confided in a select few who i knew would not pass judgment. Desperate for a way out but not sure of my direction. I was hungry for classes to start but I needed a job so bad I almost, almost decided on not going back. No this was not an option. Everything was on hold because I could not move forward in dysfunctional circumstances nor did I deserve the options I chose to indulge in. Here I am wide open raising money anyway I can to stay afloat in my nonprofit and my home. Never depended on a man but grateful for him holding me down how he did. This is only the beginning.
Posted on: Wed, 13 Aug 2014 00:35:42 +0000
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