That moment when you feel lost, defeated, and beaten down....that moment when you feel you just cant fight anymore....that moment when you realized the weight you lost youve regained.....the pain it is to know you feel failed.....the embarrassment of regaining what you lost......the shame within and hurt you caused yourself....the emotions of this battle are sometimes unbearable....you front a happy face....you blame it on something else....you hide behind a mask........and then you wake up and somehow, something, or someone changes that feeling for a moment to regain your confidence, your spirit, your spark, your reason why you started this journey....to change your life, to change your families life, to help change others.....Its a constant battle....Obesity is no joke....I struggle everyday trying to understand why I have to fight harder than others.....why I was chosen to have this curse.....why I battle.....why me :( ...Ive got to learn not to ask why....but how and what.....how can I better understand my disease of obesity and what am I willing to do to conquer it......there is no way that I can help others if I am not willing to help myself first......Thank you to my wife....who yesterday spoke to me what is true.....I had given up....I was blaming Cancer ....I was making my life hell along with my families life.....I can only blame myself....I was the one putting the wrong food in my mouth....no one else......I thank God for my regaining my vision last night.....Thank you both for allowing me to see what you see in me...that I couldnt see in myself......I am sure there will be still bumpy roads ahead....but I know with all the wonderful balloons in my life.....I will be lifted up in prayer....as I stated when I started this journey.....I WILL WIN.......I promise.....A Change Is Coming......
Posted on: Sun, 09 Nov 2014 13:57:32 +0000
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