The Next Step I want to know what my next step is, and it seems as though I am sometimes walking through molasses in a dream, all speech and activity happening in slow motion. The message I invite is not responding, and I wonder where my own inner Spirit is. Where did my essence disappear? Why is Creator not hearing my plea? What is it that I ‘should’ be doing that I am not at this time? I believe that prayer and meditation will answer any question or quandary. It may not always be the answer that I want, but it is the answer that will lead to my highest good. Why is it not working this time? I see the chaos of the world unfold a bit more each day. Perhaps if I did not read or watch the news I would not be so affected by it all. It is almost like an addiction for me, watching Brian Williams each night, reading what is happening to the climate, to the honey bees, to the state of Vermont. It brings a profound sadness to me sometimes, sadness for the wonderful pieces of this world which are and will be lost to the coming generations, to my grandkids, to the human family. What will it be like to live in a world with unbearably hot and dry summers? What will it be like to live in a world that has only a recorded memory of the polar bears and the monarch butterflies? What richness will be lost when the rivers shrivel and the invasive species choke out the indigenous plants and animals? I am an elder, and as such, I believe that there is some incumbent expectation on me to do something positive, and to maintain a positive attitude, especially in the face of sad expectations. I look to men like David Suzuki and Bill McKibben who speak and write with authenticity, stating the dire direction we move towards, and at the same time, express hope based on their own wisdom and experience. What is it that I can do to express hope, to see how we humans will wake up and become a part of rather than a part separate from, and in that separation, the destroyers? Prayer and meditation will always play a big role. Speaking with others, sharing my fears and hopes and hearing the feedback and thoughts of those others is also important. And perhaps continuing to go left foot, right foot, even when it seems pointless, is a tried and true method of getting to “the next step”.
Posted on: Fri, 22 Aug 2014 18:15:58 +0000