The last 24 hours have been a struggle for me. In fact, the last year has been brutal. I find myself using all of my energy up by simply trying to stay alive. Ive tried many things to improve myself and my outlook on life, but it seems like no matter how hard I try, I always lose. People keep telling me to write about it. Id love to do that, if I could just get my head on straight enough to do so. I know Im not the only person who experiences such devastating psychological pain. That thought makes me feel sick- I wouldnt wish it on anyone, ever. School is just not an option for me anymore, not in my present state. Neither is work. The only thing ive been able to commit to over the past few weeks is walking my dog every day. I need to do something, anything, to give back, to have a purpose. I think maybe a blog would be a good idea... Itd be therapeutic and meaningful altogether.
Posted on: Sat, 02 Nov 2013 03:56:21 +0000