The next couple of days, are going to be rough on me. Tomorrow, is my son, Billys 26 Birthday. I can not believe he is going to be 26. This is a happy day, it marks one of 4 of the best days of my life. The day he was born, on a Wed morning at 9:19 am, after 22 hours, and an emergency C section, well he came in the world making a statement. He is, and always will be the light of our life. He just got a promotion, he is now the commercial manager at Auto Zone in Inverness. So now he has his own store. We are so proud of this little man, and what he has accomplished in his short time on earth. Happy Birthday Son, dad and I love you more than life itself. ( As we do both our kiddos ) As we celebrate this happy day, on Monday it will be a different story. Monday marks one year since the passing of my Baby Dakota. Dakota was with me from the moment he was hatched, for 26 years. He was and always will be my second son. I miss him so much, and the pain from that night is still as raw as if it had happened today. This is something I will never get over, or deal with. It was so preventable, and unnecessary for him to be killed by one of our dogs, that I am not sure how to place the guilt, and anger. It does not help that he is still not cremated, and I have not been able to close that chapter. I miss him, I can still feel him, I want him to be back on my chest, loving me. I dont think anything or anyone loved me as much as Dakota did. I miss that love. I miss that contact. I miss him. SO please bare with me, for the next few days I will be an emotional mess. No words can replace that love, and the pain in my heart can not be calmed.
Posted on: Sun, 28 Sep 2014 03:09:39 +0000
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