The past cpl weeks, Ive seriously been reevaluating certain things in my life...continuing nursing was one of them, I pretty much decided to give it up & go to school for something else. Ive seen the very ugly side of nursing while working in management & its now tainted for me. In my experience Ive been asked (or better yet told) to lie, not worry about it and/or overlook things. When I didnt jump on the bus (either ur on the bus or off the bus, is what I was told) I was left out of the loop (along with one of my fellow nurses/friend who didnt agree with any of this either). I continued to do what I knew was right. What made me feel good was that I had patients coming to me that were still alert & cognitive & said they preferred to come to me because I was the only one that helped or really listened. They didnt want to talk to the DON or other ADON. Needless to say after 5 years at that job, after the changes, I wasnt there too much longer. I was miserable working there with the new people in management anyway, Although I loved my patients, I hated my job. Even after going back to the floor (which I love), I still know the ongoings & I know why I cant get certain meds or treatments for patients or why this patient gets preference over another & as a patient advocate, it pisses me off... My job is to provide care & comfort for my patient & because of all this red tape bullshit I cant get them what they really need! Last night i dreamt of my Grama Jimenez (who passed away in 04 while I was in nursing school) & in the dream I had to use my nursing skills on her. Now I dont know what this dream meant, but perhaps she was telling me I should continue nursing.... I miss it, but I just dont know .....
Posted on: Sat, 28 Jun 2014 20:37:28 +0000