The rocky year started with my relationship crisis. I choose my marriage over money and I am still very proud of what I did. So much up and down and too many changes to handle. I was simply lost. I can’t cry. I must be so weak. Everyday is challenging. Yes, even the simple task like to eat and sleep were very difficult at a time. A couple of metal breakdown, anxiety attack and not very good to myself become so natural. I hurt. Being in abnormal relationship with myself become so normal and I can’t even recall how the normal person used to be look like. I screamed. Yes, quite remarkable how much difficult it can be. Even just to make a conversation. I wish I could be nicer to myself more. Need to figure out where did I leave me?. Regardless of who I used to be, I am more curious to know who I am wanting to be. I am confused. In a big way. After all, every morning I wake up, I am so glad that I am alive. I am so glad that I am able to smile. Thanks god for another chance in everyday of my life. Let me take on to the slow ride. I need to slow down to catching up. And need lots of time for myself to figure out and do the things that I want to do and become the person that I want to become. Such a tragic year. I am emotionally beaten up.
Posted on: Wed, 24 Dec 2014 11:29:11 +0000
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