There are some things that I will not ever be able to write down or give an explanation that will even come close to or give justice to the situation it is I am writing about. Haiti is one of these subjects. The sheer beauty of this island is one that can not be put a catagory because it is so unique. As I look out into the ocean I see a small piece of eden. As I stare up at the mountains it is a backdrop that any artist would yearn for. But what is in between the ocean and the mountains is the true haiti. There are piles of rubble and trash surrounded by vendors selling food and nick knacks. There are pillars of smoke that rise into the horizon like smoke signals to there gods but under these pillars is a culture that in three days has made me look at the way I am with my family and the way I react with them. How can I be so numb and cold to the ones I love when Jesus has blessed me with anything and everything I could want or need. I focus on things done wrong and things that need improvment when the truth is my standards and expectations of my spiritual walk and family are unreachable. I set goals that can not be reached so I will never be content with where my feet rest. But the truth is i need to stop, and breath and share some of my time with my family. Last night I sat in a room with twelve kids as they played cards with P rob and note I sat and watched the land before time in creole with the younger children. I felt ashamed because I cannot remember the last time I sat still long enough to talk with my wife and children much less watch a movie. I will always be head strong and devoted to spreading the name of Jesus and His written word. But why did it take me coming to haiti to stop and realize the priceless value of family time. I was and am humbled in a way that makes me mad at myself for the way I have excluded my immediate family from my life with Jesus. I spend all day in warfare and telling people of Jesus s love only to come home and hide in the back room from my own family. I have become a stranger to my wife and kids as I become a voice for Jesus to others which is completely wrong and unscriptural. I assumed me living a life for Jesus would be enough, but somewhere along the line I excluded my wife and kids from this vision and for that I am ashamed and sorry. I just got done talking with p rob and said I do not know how but I am going to change this. We must set aside time for our families and I must be the first to do this. Jesus You sent me to haiti to convict me and for that I am greatful. It says in Ephesians 3:17-19 in the message this And I ask him that with both feet planted firmly on love, youll be able to take in with the followers of Jesus the extravagant dimensions of Christs love. Reach out and experience the breadeth! Test its length! Plumb the depths! Rise to the heights! Live full lives, full in the fullness of God. Yall have a blessed day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted on: Sat, 19 Jul 2014 10:50:48 +0000
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