There are times in life that call for honest communication and if we ignore them...guess what. The situation repeats itself until we get it and speak our truth. I grew up in Royal Tunbridge Wells In Kent, UK. A very posh town. I grew up always mindful of what the neighbours would think and always, doesnt matter what the situation..I was told to say please and thank you!!!!! As much as I loved the wild and wooded places of my childhood I found the culture a suffocating place to be. By the time I left home I had a complete inability to express myself beyond the regime of polite And dont get me wrong. I love people who take time to say thank you, who are kind and polite but there are times when a more rowdy expletive is the most potent tool you can use. It took me some massive lessons to eventually find my voice and be able to express my needs and it all began when I scored the most beautiful home to live in,overlooking the Coral sea. I had only just moved from the UK to Australia and I welcomed people I met to call in,stay for a night, have dinner. I didnt expect them to stay, move in, use all my amenities without giving a thing, leave their rubbish everywhere, abuse my trust, run up my phone bill, steal my stuff..oh yes the list goes on For seven years I struggled to find my voice. There were times I would hide in my home,feelings so paranoid and anxious because so many people were camping in my garden and I didnt know how to ask them to leave,without saying please and thank you,which so far hadnt worked! Emotionally I was wrung out and my need for my home back was building with such a force that I would explode in rage. Then everyone would scatter for a few hours,but they would come back! I remember coming outside to find someone using my washing machine. When I said Id asked for my space, he shrugged his shoulders and said it was no big deal,he was only doing his washing!!!! I became this emotionally unstable person living in my own home. There were time I would make up excuses to get rid of people ,those times NEVER worked. They always slapped me in the face and I would find myself having to face the situation again. I had opened the door on a situation I had never experienced before. In England if I wanted to visit a friend ,Id call them and see if they were free a certain weekend. We never moved in with each other and took over homes that were not ours. Australia had this huge tribe of people that travelled in vans and Kombis and unbeknown to me were always looking for places to pull up and stay! And sadly the nomads I met did not respect or give back,but that was the beauty of my lesson. These little angels in disguise were teaching me to speak up! Seven years it took me!!!! Seven years of being totally ignored as I politely muttered excuse me everyone,im actually needing some space,would you mind moving out, thank you so much,Im very grateful. If you would be so kind as to leave my hand carved wooden bowls I see you are using ,that would be wonderful Until I finally perfected the art I could clearly set my boundaries without emotion I didnt need to get angry ,upset to get what I wanted It was a long and hard journey and I learnt that some people only understand F...k Off But i could say it from a calm and centred place And bare as that statement may seem ,I didnt need to put please or thank you with it! That was truly a biggy for me! When I learnt that lesson ,my life changed. The people that began to come built rose gardens and fixed the roof and did all sorts of loving and caring things for me and my home because finally I had learnt to love me and that was what it was all about! And what I give to myself is what I attract! So at this wonderful time of mercury retrograde,when we often get opportunities to clear mis communication,remember to honour you. It takes practise,dont beat yourself up if it comes out as an explosion. But do remember that what fuels it is from you. If you need to apologise ,put things right,do so. When I came from anger and rage it never felt good, but until I learnt to communicate and not allow energy to build up within me,it never changed We are all children learning and growing so wherever you are in communicating your needs,be gentle with yourself xxxxx Please like,share,comment. This is your way of showing appreciation for what has been given freely and helsp keep my posts in your news feeds..Thank you everyone
Posted on: Sun, 12 Oct 2014 23:57:06 +0000