There are times when the mind goes blank, cant even think nor ever to able to give ideas on what to write. The neurons are no longer connecting to each other. Not even a busy signal. Just total blank. So its back to ramblings of anything and everything that crosses the mind. Thoughts of love ones, especially about my children. What they are doing, where they are now, with whom they are with and so forth. These thoughts at times criss cross with rememberance of the children being babies and their growing years. A smile would slowly creep across this crinkled old face. A smile of happiness and contentment that the children are making it in their young lives. Then at times the mind stopped at certain places where I found friends that had stabbed me in from the back. Friends whom I have great respect and admiration but suddenly these are the same friends that would stoop down and tell tall tales about me without even realising they dont even know me that well. I dont share my inner feelings or my personal problems with all, only a selected few know about my sufferings, my personal life and my tribulations. So I push just these friends aside, I can live without them. Then there are a few, very few, very close and personal friends, who came when I called, who stood by my bed when Im sick and who knows the REAL ME. They keep to themselves, never sharing what they know with others. These are TRUE FRIENDS. I treasure them with my life. Who they are and where they are, well, its me to know and they to know but for others to find out. And theres my cyber space friends who keep me entertain with their postings and quotes and images. Who share their life stories on line. I truly enjoy reading all of them though it takes some hours of my time to read all. Without these cyber friends my life will be dull and boring. But most of the times when the mind is off in its own cyber space travels my thoughts are interrupted to the same face. A face that ONCE filled my dreams. A face that FILLED my life. A face that forever did HAUNTED me. My shadow were her shadow. She was THE LADY but alas now she is not. A single tear would fall and the day or night was filled with darkness. Wherever SHE is now, I wish her happiness ALWAYS. Its TIME to let GO. For I have my TRUE love NOW. nashri idris 1739hrs 6 December 2014 missing my TRUE love in Singapura
Posted on: Sat, 06 Dec 2014 09:39:54 +0000
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