There have been many of nights... nights in which I find myself unproductive; struggling to tackle every task I have set on my to do list. Struggling because an angel sleeps so beautifully a few feet away from me; feet that feel like miles, hours, decades even. Yet as she lies alone, content, knowing that soon I will lie next to her, my heart cries out for that same sense of security. That same sense of sureness, confidence, that my protector, my center, my most cherished loved one will wrap their arms around me, kiss me with extreme adoration, touch me with valid confirmation that I am not alone... synchronize breath with me as we bring end to one day and renew ourselves together for the next... That same... oh how I want that same... feeling. Sometimes the anxiety and yearning runs so deep that I simply cannot fight. That the only consoling is to curl up next to my angel and find peace in knowing that at least she need not yearn for me; any longer. So yet again Ive lost this battle *closes laptop and turns off light. However as I lie with one of Gods greatest creations, I will dream of the King that I hope to soon dwell with; wondering if he dreams of me too. #MsWrightsWayafterdark #cosleeping #singlemom #yearningformyking
Posted on: Thu, 14 Aug 2014 08:44:13 +0000