There is just So Much going on and I feel like Im going to break. Who am I kidding? I AM breaking as I write this. As most of you know, my grandson lost his grandpa due to a heart attack on the 23rd. He and his mom are both devastated. (Sabrina is Steves only child). I came home from being out of town because of this. Well, late last night, I found out that my now ex husband has had another heart attack and is in ICU, unresponsive. He has an infection in his blood and a UTI. Dan is back on the breathing tube/life support. I know I divorced him because of the betrayal, and I know in my heart it was the right thing to do. But it dont make it hurt any less. I wouldnt wish this on an enemy, let alone my ex. And Samantha, whom I still love as if she were my own daughter, is a train wreck. I am doing my best to be there for her (there are quite a few miles between us making it hard, if not impossible to get to her). But I love that girl. As if that wasnt enough, my best friend of over 30 years has declining health, and its very serious. She, too, may be departing this world in the not so distant future. I cant stand this. My heart is torn in so many directions right now. Who do I go to? How can I help? Im so lost and so confused right now. Even those of us who wear a smile and do all we know to do to help the ones we love and the world around us to be a better place....we break sometimes. It is times like this that I wish with all that I am that someone out there realized that Strong people need to simply be held and let to cry till the tears stop coming. Im simply asking for prayer for all these people that I love. Thank you, God bless you.
Posted on: Wed, 24 Sep 2014 20:42:55 +0000