Theres a lot going on in my mind right now. Im terrified. Lonely. Drowning in emotions that cant matter to me anymore and its hard for me to wrap my mind around that concept. Im alone now. Aside from my son. Thats a different kind of love. However, although life is so confusing to me right now, there is one thing I know for sure. I will never ever let myself get into a situation like this ever again. I will never feel this pain again for as long as I live. I refuse. I will never let myself have the chance. Its time for me to grow up and start worrying about what I have to do. Not what I want to do. Because if theres ever been anything I never wanted to do and feared for the longest time... Its this. Just wanting to feel nothing.
Posted on: Sun, 12 Oct 2014 01:59:33 +0000