This entire process has been described as a journey... Something that has multiple steps with some bigger than others. Tomorrow is another step in this journey: breast reconstruction. On June 27th when I had my double mastectomy, what the surgeons removed had to be replaced in order to start the process of reconstruction. These implants, called spacers, have been my arch-nemesis for the past few months. The spacers are not what you think of when others have breast augmentation. These are made of canvas-like material and are very thick and tough. When I first met with my plastic surgeon (who is amazing, by the way), she said, How big do you want em? What a weird question, right? I was more worried about getting rid of the buggers, you know since they were trying to kill me! So after talking to Chris about it, I decided I was going to get the boobs I wanted so I decided to upgrade :) In order to do that, the spacers would need to be filled over the course of a few months in order to stretch my muscles to prepare for the permanent implants. Now, getting the spacers filled was quite the wild experience. My plastic surgeon would come in with four HUGE syringes and fill em up! It was wild and will leave the details off of this page. After they were filled, my skin and muscles between my neck and midsection felt like a rubber band being stretched to the limit. Since June, it has been difficult to reach my arms fully over my head because of how tight everything was. But mostly, it was incredibly difficult to sleep. I am never comfortable, always tossing and turning, shoving pillows all around me and grumbling under my breath. Over time, your body and mind get used to it and it doesnt bother as much because it becomes the new normal. Well, Im ready for a new new normal. These things are going to be replaced with normal implants. The spacers have served their purpose and I appreciate that, but good riddance! I cant wait to feel more comfortable and be one step closer to regaining ownership of my body. I ask that you keep me in your prayers tonight and tomorrow as I have this surgery in Omaha in the morning. You all have been so supportive and I could not have made it this far without Chris, my boys, our families and all of you with your encouraging words and kind gestures. We are very blessed people
Posted on: Fri, 23 Jan 2015 02:04:45 +0000
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