This has been viral the whole day today on my wall. I am keeping this myself because I have seen the cycle myself years ago in NCI, Nilai. Every photo is haunting me in a good way. This post is for me to remind myself that life is too short. MUMBO JUMBO: Few months back was Ramadhan. It was one of the BEST Ramadhan I have ever had! I couldnt describe it at the time but with every passing day during Ramadhan, I knew my time was short and I have to change before my time is up. Its a very weird silver lining area when u feel so happy that your Ramadhan is wonderful but at the same time its so scary knowing that it might be your last. With daily musings on my family, my work, my loved ones and my kampong, this thought knowing my time is about to end, it makes me stronger to fill every ounce of time to do the best i can, forgive and forget as quickly as possible and try hard to instill goodness. My time is about to end, and I have to make sure I have the chance to correct myself, I have to make sure I make my parents proud (eventho i am single!-ahaks), my siblings are settled and my dear ones are taken care of. I may be single, but trust me, I am happy- overjoyed knowing i have tried my best and may Allah accepts me to be on His side. All materials seems not important anymore, I have slowed down on many things, sometimes i do feel empty, but its my choice to be just me, myself and I. On my self sins, Its simply too enormous that i am so shame of myself. Was in a religious lecture in my house (Every Saturday 4-6pm Pinggir TTDI by a great Algerian Ustaz in english PM me if ur interested to join- Shamin Rizanas SaQina Haven and hubby (of FB TTDI) join us too, ask them what do they think) last week and the topic was UJUB. It was a good one especially in my line of work and surrounding. When I ask a question, I got my answer but a day later my Abah ask me why do I seem scared when i wanted to ask the Ustaz? My answer is I have so many sins that such a prominent scholar cud actually see it painted on my face. That is to one human being, can u imagine how shameful i feel infront of Allah? And no, I dont forget... my time is about to end. huk huk. Everyday, I astaghfirullah as often as I can. Good thing is, my dear cousin Shafiq Alhabshi shared something with me today... I am not late to repent I guess. Let me share it here: Reported by Anas (May Allah be pleased with him): Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) said, Allah, the Exalted, has said: `O son of Adam, I forgive you as long as you pray to Me and hope for My forgiveness, whatever sins you have committed. O son of Adam, I do not care if your sins reach the height of the heaven, then you ask for my forgiveness, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, if you come to Me with an earth load of sins, and meet Me associating nothing to Me, I would match it with an earthload of forgiveness. [Tirmidhi]. Thanks.
Posted on: Wed, 23 Oct 2013 07:29:23 +0000