This is a difficult world to wake up to everyday. When such a giant and influential spirit leaves us in this way, it hits home hard for each of us. Somehow he couldnt help being who he was, and did it with such mad vibrancy and honesty, that we were all endeared. Robin Williams embodied something that we all imagine ourselves to be on that lovely day when we wake up without disabling doubt and self-consciousness; when we are at our funniest, best, most honest, responsive, in love..... We saw the generosity of this mans soul, buoyancy of life force, a seemingly awakened courage and freedom most crave. But on the other side of this beautiful being; there may be crippling awareness, mis/understanding, and pain- demons, we might say. Both give us full technicolor insight into what it is to be human. I have known intimately many such individuals; and they were all tortured as well. I admit I am drawn to the wild ones, the passionately loving ones, the geniuses and have been lucky enough to surround myself with them (friends, yes Im talking about you :-) many of whom too struggled with overt psychological and physical addictions, and suicidal ideations. I do not blame anyone for their methods of coping with this harsh world. No one is immune from coping mechanisms. It is frustrating to me that we somehow separate ourselves by referring to these struggling souls as addicts, mental disordered, overly sensitive, etc.... when they are not over there dealing with their own issues. They are us. Unfortunately the world and our heritage is such that we are mostly left with only coping as response to life. We are trying to make it better, seeking transcendence from this terrible illusion, or simply trying to find out who we are, how to live, survive, and be happy, or even understand what might look like.... It may seem difficult to grasp how someone so expressive, ecstatic, productive, and revered could take his own life - maybe because it makes us wonder about our own capacity to withstand this world. If you cant possibly understand how this could happen- please take a good look at yourself and the world around you. Robin Williams was an intelligent and gifted man who lived a noble, and likely wild life touching the world in many ways. Let him teach us another lesson by leaving so soon. Our sensitivity is not something to be muted by being strong. Nor is our eccentricity a burden or rare; its simply our individual path. Our struggles are everyones struggles. Putting them into category boxes doesnt help. Only creates more separation. When you are open and free and live your life in a spirit of generosity and reciprocity, balance is imperative- otherwise you will be a pendulum swinging through extremes. No matter who you are, you simply cant give it all away. Thats an egoistic illusion. There cannot be one face for the world, and another face when alone. Your private struggles are never just yours. Neither are your neighbors. They are everyones. We cant save each other; but we can love ourselves and each other. And we can give each other the space to be as we are, and find our own way (as Robin brilliantly and humbly found his). All this being said, I am saddened by this loss. A wake-up call to our compassion and understanding..
Posted on: Wed, 13 Aug 2014 00:38:12 +0000
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