This is a part of my emotional healing..Sometimes in life inside a marriage you recognize there are deep wounds from things said or done in the past and it comes to a point of no return.I failed in mine because I was naive enough to believe hanging on to a ex Bf on fb was ok.Never understanding how much that it affected my ex-hubby.We each made mistakes and made wrong choices that ultimately destroyed our marriage and trust.I was naive to ever believe I cound be friends with my ex.My nephew passed away at 22 from a suicide and I was heartbroken and the friend made the attempt to contact me to check on me bc he knew me well enough to know my heart was broken.Over time I began talking move to him online believing it was innocent.Again not believing it would hurt my ex.Afterall he had already been caught in Tn with his pants down at a bar so he was far from innocent.Long story short I left and went to Kentucky to my Dads because I was so confused..He left and had a new gf in a matter of weeks.I chose to come home because my father was dying.3 weeks after my return I realized on fb he had a new gf.2 weeks later my beloved father passed away.3 weeks later out of hurt and anger I filed for divorce.31/2 months later papers were signed then filed and marriage was over..I have since learned I chose to put a friend 1st not realizing the damage I had done to my ex.Now,I can only learn from it.I saw him in July and took him a few of his belongings.I will always love and adore Jene.But I realize the damage done both ways was so severe it would never be repaired.At best this open letter is an apology so that I can gain closure to heal and to move on with life.I can now stop blaming myself or others involved and stop self destructing.Jene fell in love with someone else and is emotionally disconnected from me and my family.Now I work to do the same.I can take responsibility for my behalf.I can accept my mistakes and my bad choices,I accept his apology and now closure sets in and healing has already begun.I do NOT hate Jene Hatcher.I will always love him for there can always be only one of him.It is my sincere desire to move toward tmr and begin again..But that he always knows that I am here and will always be his biggest supporter in life.I wish you well and I pray you will find the right woman for you.Im only sorry it wasnt me.Someday I will be ready to love again and I crave a man who is like him in so many ways..I want him to find happiness again.He is a great man and one day someone will walk through the door and take his breathe away..Emotionally having closure and gaining it in July was the best move I made.Just hope he knows how great he is.Life gets better.I AM so much better now for this experience.What doesnt kill you truly does make u stronger!
Posted on: Fri, 25 Oct 2013 04:59:06 +0000
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