This is an incredibly difficult post for me to write, but for those of you who have been following my cancer story here and are not on the group set up for it, I am going to post it in both places. The big sigh of relief may have been, and probably was, premature. Six days ago I noticed a spot on my tongue at the incision site that looked off. In the six days since, it has doubled in size and begun to hurt. I saw my surgeon this morning and he is, and I quote, concerned. We are having it biopsied on Wednesday. If, as we all fear, the cancer has indeed recurred, then it is acting incredibly aggressively. He stated that he feels that if we had started radiation two weeks ago, it likely would still be there and we would be dealing with trying to do surgery in a previously irradiated area - not a good thing. Because of that, if it does come back as cancer again, then the treatment needs to be equally aggressive. We are looking at removing the entire left half of my tongue, in that instance, followed by certainly radiation and possibly chemo. And speech therapy... I feel like Ive been hit by a hammer. I had been all geared up for this before getting the initial news that the margins were clear and that everything should be fine, and now the rug has definitely been pulled out from under me. But it is what it is, and as soon as we know exactly what it is, then we will deal with it however we need to. I do plan on attending the ferret show this weekend. I refuse to let this control my life completely, and he feels there will be no problems with traveling after the biopsy procedure. I look forward to seeing many of you there. In the meantime, and on-going, please send up good thoughts and wishes, not only for me and Beth, but also for my friend Gina (Tobius Coffey), who is having her own surgery for cancer on Thursday.
Posted on: Tue, 04 Nov 2014 01:21:24 +0000