This is bothering me tonight. Firstly, thanks for all the concerned messages- Im fine so far- found a tea garden to camp in, guy ropes attached to all surrounding benches, tent seems to be coping alright under the conditions. So, dont you get lonely? This question- its bothering me. Ive always shrugged it off, no, no. I dont get lonely. I meet so many people... blah blah, I go on. I used to think I liked my own company. Im sure I still do sometimes. But I feel so alone, dark before 6, in the tent, miles from anywhere. Evenings recently, I get lonely. And the people that are so temporarily in my life- I dont think they realise how good they make me feel. Just a chat, preferably not related to this walk or me- just a chat about stuff- it makes a difference. Their company makes me feel good. But then I leave. Its always just a moment and then Im alone again. I write about the people I meet and conversations I have, but on the other side of the coin are the people I dont meet and the conversations I dont have. Moments shared with strangers will only ever fill the gap so much. My tent sometimes needs its guy ropes, so too my mind sometimes needs to be tethered- to something stable and secure. Im constantly on the move, but humans need a certain level of stability. Comfort comes from a place of familiarity, and every day Im tugged from all that is familiar and onwards to the next new place, new people. I can now empathise how tough life must be for some who really, really dont have anyone in their lives for whatever reason- be that death or personal challenges. Im lucky I do- just, unfortunately, limited to phone calls and messages. Not seeing the same faces every day, every week even, not being able to pick up a conversation where you left off, hug- thats really rubbish after a certain amount of time. #longwalkround
Posted on: Wed, 07 Jan 2015 20:48:12 +0000
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