This is for Taylor Roth. For those of you who know whats going on its hard to find the correct words to find and say and actions to take. Fact is there isnt a correct way. The time comes and it comes out all on its own. Thank you Nancy,Julie,and Debbie for showing me the way to all this. If it wasnt for you things could have ended up in our worst fears. I know your in a rough spot friend. But I have the utmost faith in you. We all do. We are all here now. I know you cant see this messege but I want the world to know. Its midnight and I cant sleep thinking of you all night. You and I have been through a lot of shit together. We have been best friends since I knew I even had a conscious. To see this happen now pains me beyond belief. I watched you over the last 3 years get worse. Knowing one day this had to happen. Paycheck after paycheck dwindle away. Nobody knew but me and the whole time I said nothing. Trying to protect you, not caring of the repercussions. Everyday we talked. Sometimes we fought. Every time I lost. Things got worse and now it happened. I could sit here and say I hate you. Your stupid. Watching you hate life everyday for every little thing that happened.But your not. You are in fact the smartest man I know. The strongest. The toughest. You would do anything for your friends. You did everything for me everyday of my life. You are the one who was there for me in person and soul when I went through divorce and all the other terrible things. Everyday. It was you. You have always been my best friend. Without you around now my life will stand still. But I will be here, watching and waiting. I would die for you Taylor. If I could take your place I would but its up to you now to get through this. Nobody realizes how bad things have gotton. So many things I hid from everyone who stood in your way for too long. I do blame myself because now its one too many and almost too late.This is the fourth time this happened and the last. Everybody knows now. I am waiting for you to come clean and face it. I will continue to wait always. I cannot go on with life if you are not around Taylor. I want to apologize to everybody and your family especially for not coming forward. Im truly sorry I allowed this to happen. You need to make it through this. Your family needs you here now. Your son. I need you. You are the one who taught me so much of life. Everything from how to manage my damn finances to how to drink properly and stop being such n asshole. Do you remember Mrs. Kuyak in fith grade? And the oatmeal pies? How about the time we recently went on a trip together to Florida. Things we have always wanted to do together as best friends. We talked and did so much together our entire lives. You are my childhood friend. Live together and work together. Each others shoulders strong when the burden got heavy. I cant lose you now because of this. Show me once again how to be strong like you. And Ill show you how to never back down in the face of a demon. God dammit Taylor you need to be there for my son when the time comes and we need to skip work and go fishing all day and talk about what we want out of life. We still need to go on that trip to Canada and rough it by ourselves with nothing. I need to be the best man at your wedding and I cannot do any of this and more if your not around. Im telling you that you are not allowed to give up. Not now and not ever. You are not allowed to sit down. You are not allowed to say screw it. You have to fight,you have to best this because without you I am nothing. Whose going to have my back at the bar when shit gets crazy??? Nobody I know will justify how right I am even when we both silently know Im wrong. Only you. Your family is rooting for you. Your friends are fighting for you,and Im here alongside of many people now. Do it for yourself. Show yourself your family and the world what it all means to you. Do you remember the time we had no money no jobs and took that ride in the middle of that snowstorm? All because we were starving with no food in my house. Shitty Camry no money. Bored. Got stuck in the freezing cold for how long with nothing an hour away from home.no phone.sold our belongings just for some lunch. We honestly thought we were going to freeze to death out there. But we made it back somehow with lunch in our hands. Couldnt have done it without you. We tell that story to everyone we know. Now its time for you to persever in the same way. Everything holding you back. Feeling like no ground under your feet. I know how you feel. I always will. Hands shaking. Body trembling. Mind wanting to give out as you fall completely broken. You dont give up now Taylor. You just cant. We wont let you anymore. To everybody who reads this hit the like button and say a big prayer. We all hold hands and thank god he is ok and will fight. And Taylor one last thing big guy, your my best friend and i love you man. Through anything. Always. Get the messege out to friends and family of his. He needs our support always and forever. Chuck Kimball George Papapetropoulos Samantha Quinlan Corri Collins Jeff Nguyen Max Hass Ben Emond Steven Beckius Chad Hoff. rich grandlund. Nancy. Julie. Debbie. John.
Posted on: Sun, 07 Dec 2014 06:57:36 +0000
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