This is going to be one of the toughest posts i have ever posted as it means i am acknowledging i have a illness. For the last few months i have been seeing a therapist and have been diagnosed with ptsd. Through this i have started to learn who i am. There are times i feel as if i could curl up in a ball and spend all day there. People look at you different because on the outside you look and feel healthy and normal and they dont understand ptsd. However on the inside you are torn up from nightmares, visions, lack of sleep, anxiety and depression. Obviously we know the big triggers that set us off(which i try and avoid like the plague)but for me its the little triggers i have no control over that really get ahold and flip your world upside down. I want to say today some big burdens were lifted off my shoulders during therapy. I realized for the first time in a long time i am worthy of love and capable of loving back. I know this is something that never completely goes away but can be managed. I am starting to realize who i am as a person, husband, father and hopefully an inspiration. My goal is to take this negative and turn it into a positive and be an inspiraton and motivate individuals that there is hope.
Posted on: Wed, 13 Aug 2014 01:52:17 +0000
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