This morning/last night involved intense pain to the point where i could do nothing about it. I didnt get much sleep. Im p sure that my spleen is still growing, albeit at a much slower rate. According to my last scan, my spleen was 16.6cm which is a total of 3cm growth in less than two months even after the chemo started. My doctor is concerned itll rupture. By the way, the spleen is a blood filtration system and i have blood cancer hence its so full of content that its at risk of rupturing or general tearing. Before i got sick, i had no idea what the spleen did. The things we learn at the times we learn them... My spleens been physically sensitive for months now and gets worse the more active i am (increasing blood flow/heart rate). I can feel my blood pumping through it... thats been a source of my pain that the diagnosis finally explained. Months of not knowing... so even though it hurts a lot still, its somehow easier to take knowing why it hurts so much. The blood thinners and chemo are supposed to help relieve the pressure of it, but i swear sometimes i feel like all they do are make me feel generally p gross. I trust my doctors very much and intend to continue following their instructions but Im tired of having to keep the ER on standby like this. Not emotionally tired, just literally tired from shitty sleep patterns. Im in oddly high spirits in light of it being a bad physical day so far.
Posted on: Sat, 25 Oct 2014 18:04:18 +0000