This post is only to encourage, impact, and enlighten... Its deep! To my friends, family, and loved ones... As many of you know i have made detrimental decisions and redundant mistakes while growing up. These decisions and mistakes cost me and my loved ones years of pain, hurt, heartache, fear, uncertainty, and not to mention thousands and thousands of dollars. However, my family, my children, and my loved ones never gave up on continued to love me the same. They watched me make the same mistakes over and over again. It took almost 15 years of me putting them thru hell, almost my little brothers entire life, to change and realize the magnitude and effects of my ignorance. Recently i felt something deep inside myself and realized it was the exact pain and fear my mother was feeling last christmas. I was free and clear last christmas, so i wanted to have the traditional Manhattan with my father (i had came a long way, accomplished many things) it had been almost 7 years since i had 1 family traditional drink with my dad. Unfortunately my mom immediately broke down in tears, fear, and uncertainty. I couldnt understand. So on easter when i arrived my dad had convinced my mom to drink a small shot of whiskey with saturated manshino cherries, (she loves cherries) . So i arrive and they offer me a manhatton, i refused. No way could i see the pain, my mother remembered over the years. Even though, the drink would not cause actual pain in any way I refused. I could not bring myself to reignite the pain i saw in her eyes, her pain of remembrance from my past.(Mind you my mother DOES NOT DRINK EVER) This excessively long post is not about me tho. In my many years of isolation from the real world I devised a theory that cannot be proved wrong, and never will, nor is it profitable from a monetary perspective but vital to our existence.... As i was born and raised Catholic, I only claim to be christian, but my theory is that... the main and only purpose is to love, and be loved. Of course along the way they are many things required by the world to sustain our existence, but our intentions must specifically be love. Love is a feeling that is unexplainable, but can literally cripple us physically, mentally and emotionally. Jesus taught Peter to forgive 70 times 7 times... no matter what they did. (Matthew 18:22) How many times can we forgive the ones that have hurt us, or done wrong?? As long as they continue to do it, and want to change. In the parable of The Prodigal Son 1 son squanders all of his fathers money,and does many many bad things. The son then returns years later, remorseful, and his father throws a party, making the good hardworking son jealous. The money, the pain, the hurt, disappeared when the father was reunited with the love from his son. Societies saying is to forgive and forget.... however, we can never forget the love we have for those that have hurt us, no matter how bad. We can only forget and forgive the wrongs they have inflicted upon us, and accept them and their ambition to change, and continue to love them as we did in the beginning.
Posted on: Thu, 14 Aug 2014 02:13:53 +0000
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