Thought I could go awhile without my meds and ended up in a bad way. After that thought pattern starts it lasts anywhere from 1-3 days it seems. I think I have been doing quite well for a good stretch of time though! Just backslid back into my heartache that turns to anger. I know my facebook friends get tired of it sometimes and it might sound like blah blah blah after awhile. I take my anger out on facebook because I cant talk to any of those people without them calling the cops. I have to stay away from them, therefore I cant yell at the people who I really want to yell at! Some of my posts are pretty rough I know that. Hard to read! But to those of you that comment, like for support, talk to me via pm and post special things to my wall to give me some comfort and encouragement I want you to know that I pray for every one of you to be blessed. God wont forget! He loves when people reach out to the hurting even though you may also be hurting! And supporting me is supporting the underdog. Popular opinions arent always popular with God. Heck let alone supporting me Im just glad if you dont unfriend me! God will remember you and so will I ☝💗 I have struggled with thoughts of suicide in the past. Theres no way Id take my life and my childrens mother away over those jerks! Doesnt even cross my mind anymore. I have to tell you now that I was much closer than what I let on before. I had it planned. Didnt do it. My kids wouldnt have found me. I was going to do it on Spruce Knob and just go to sleep. Dont worry though. No way in HELL Id do that now. I have a lot to live for! Thank you GOD 🙌
Posted on: Wed, 19 Nov 2014 03:56:44 +0000
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