Three years ago tomorrow, on a monday night, I sat in a booth at Charlies with 2 of my brothers. I had an Awful day that day, so I ordered some coffee, and joked with Clinton and Andrew about how much we could eat. My phone rang, and the number was familiar, though it wasnt saved under any contact. I was hesitant to answer, but did anyway. I will NEVER FORGET the conversation that took place, as my moms husband told me that my mother had been in a wreck, and no one knew her condition. All he knew was that it was in Apple Springs. I prayed she would be ok, but knew deep inside she was already gone. We left in a hurry, before I had even doctored my coffee. My stomach was in knots, my eyes and head were hurting from crying so much, and my whole world seemed to slow down to barely moving. I drove down 94, and met an ambulance headed back to Lufkin. So i turned around to follow it. When we got to the hospital, I ran to the ambulance, with an ounce of hope that My mother was on one of the stretchers being pulled out. She wasnt. Neither of the people were my Mom. Andrew drove us to Apple Springs, where some of my family was waiting, several yards from the site of the wreck. My aunt shook her head to signal to me that my mother was no longer alive. The police would not allow me to get close to her truck. They said that was an image I wouldnt want stuck in my head. For that, I am truly grateful. However, I still see her truck mangled, connected at the front end to another chevy pickup truck. Not a single day goes by that I dont see that gruesome image. Not a single day goes by that I dont think of my mother. How happy she would be for the wonderdul life I have now. The smile that would be on her face the first time she held her grandchild. How much she would Love Justin, and who shed be today. I miss her more than words can explain. I wish that I had had one more chance to tell her how much I love her. Tomorrow will be a tough day, a little harder than others, because its the anniversary of her death. But Ill make it, just like I have been for the past few years. Tell your family and friends how much you love them. You Never know when it will be the last chance you have.
Posted on: Fri, 04 Apr 2014 00:42:28 +0000