To Him How can you miss someone so much? Three long years and I still find myself staring in nothing particular, asking myself how was I able to reduce myself to this. I wonder why such an abstract thing could absorb someone as rational as me. I remember those long days after we ended it. You were supposed to call me in the morning to wake me up but I woke up with no I love you from you. It served as a palpable and painful reminder that youre gone. The agony was so hard to endure I almost wished death. Time seemed to slow down. The hours became so unbearably tedious. I missed you every day, thinking maybe theres a way to fix it, self-deception consuming the logical part of me. I was a total train wreck in the wake of our demise. It was so hard to start a day without you. It was so hard because there wasnt you to ask how my classes went at the end of the day. Instead, I jugged a whole lot of water and cried myself to bed. Cried so much it was so hard to breathe. I kept hoping that maybe... Just maybe... Someday, youll change your mind. Someday, well be back to how we were. Well forget each others faults and lackings. Someday, well love each other like nothing happened. I have lived in a delusional existence for two years. If only I could say that it was doomed from the very beginning but I couldnt. How could I? Things were very different with you. No eyes were as captivating. No laugh were as contagious. No one elses words were as reassuring. No one else existed when there was you. I loved you with my being. Ive never felt so much lost until we drifted apart. I am here now. So much better than when you left me. But the sting whenever I remember you is still there. Lingering around my heart, reminding me of the hole you left. I miss you. And I still ache for you. YouOwnedMe 2009 Faculty of Medicine and Surgery
Posted on: Wed, 17 Sep 2014 09:48:04 +0000
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