To Uncle Kim Susvilla, Time & life made us peregrinate down roads that for a long time lead to different directions thus never meeting nor allowing us the pleasure to stop and just talk. If we do get the chance to be in the same place, itll always be just a case of peripheral vision for you have your group and I have mine and my responsibilities will always peel me off from the scene in seconds. When Ive heard of your sickness, I told myself that you will be fine. I was that confident about it. When Ive heard about your scheduled operation, I said the same thing and still was very confident. The operation will be successful, I said to myself in one of my many soliloquy moments. Just once because thats all it needed. Life for me lately has been very demanding. Like a newborn infant, it demands much time and attention that I may not want to give but I have to. When I drew the blinds early morning today, all in mind was the list of things I needed to take care of- Work, School, Writing, Forum, Audition, etc. You or any of the family members for that matter were never on that list for a long time. I got consumed with the opportunities that have been knocking at my door that I take for granted and at times forget that I should also see my family once in a while or at least talk to them over the phone. When I received a call from mama this morning on my way to work, it did come as a surprise. She never calls first so I ignored being skeptical and answered because I didnt want to break her heart or thought that maybe it was important because its after all 5am, she doesnt wake up that early. namatay si uncle kim nimo day, she said. The words uttered in both lines after that I can no longer remember. All they were for me were murmur. I hang up and went on with my day. I carried the thought all day but I had to ignore and not let it affect me because today was one of the stories that needed to be well written to someday pave the way to the literature I wanted to be in. When I finally got the chance to work my way down the list and found my way in the comfort of the corners of my apartment, then it sinks in. What my mama said now is put on replay in my mind. Getting louder and louder by the second. Denying silence passage to my ears and my heart. I find my way checking you FB account and read the last post you shared to your friends. I t says, Totally in pain . Those words painted a frown on my face. Im sorry for not being able to see you in your last days in this realm thinking that you will be just fine. Although, it may not happen always, but I was right this time. You are fine. You are in Gods arms now. How fine could you get? Thank you for the memories Uncle Kimoy. It may not be a thick book but I do treasure my every little exposure in your story. We love you. You now have rest and is no longer in pain.Im happy for you. Embrace your father dear child and send my regards to him. We will miss you. Love, Inday Jenjen
Posted on: Wed, 16 Jul 2014 14:01:15 +0000