To all those people that I have flaked on and lost truly meaningful relationships with, im sorry. It has taken me years and one giant slap in the face to realize the person I have become is someone who is afraid to live and afraid to love based on the chance that I could get hurt. Then I came to the realization that while trying to protect myself, I hurt those around me that do love me. While on this journey of self examination I will be thinking of all of you. The people that have hurt me and especially the people I have hurt. While I would love to say Ill make it up to you, I cant. I can never give back those missed experiences, those glorious times of jubilation or even those times that were dificult. I can only promise that I will do everything in my power to be the man I want to be. A man, not afraid of the agony of defeat, but willing to stare defeat in the face, shake its hand and say next time youre ass is mine I can no longer fake it till I make it. Because at 32 I finally realized I havent made it. Now im just going to make it. Whether its good bad or indifferent. I will make it and I will make it mine and i will own it. Part of me is worried about how this is going to be received. Then I remember, I cant hold back. I must say what I have to say and let everyone form their own opinion. If youre questioning my motives, then ask me. This is not a desperate attempt to regain something I have lost. Perhaps this is my mission statement, im not quite sure. What I do know is this is how I feel what I feel must be put out there to let the universe decide. -James M. Lynott
Posted on: Mon, 21 Oct 2013 12:36:26 +0000
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