Today, 4 years ago, this was my status: We are finally home from the hospital. It is a very difficult time for us right now and we could really use your prayers for strength, courage, knowledge, patience, and understanding. We need to adjust to making sure Brian is as comfortable as he can possibly be, and that we give him the best care we can. We are using Hospice to help guide and care for him. Thanks to you for your love and support. I did not know that the day we came home, would be his last few hours with me. I dont think I would have done anything differently. He knew I loved him, I knew he loved me. I sat on the couch with him...maybe I would have just kissed him one more time. Or maybe I would have laughed with him just one more time. All I hope is that he knew that every breath I had was devoted to him and every beat of my heart was filled with love for him. That when I said, I am tired , he knew I meant I was just physically tired. It didnt mean I was tired of taking care of him...I would have gladly spent the rest of my life doing that. But in the end, it was the most bitter sweet memory I will always carry with me. The moment he took his last breath was when I realized my life, my girls lives, our families lives would never be the same. I miss him. I really really do.
Posted on: Mon, 10 Nov 2014 12:08:29 +0000