Today I remember a day of happiness and sadness. Happiness on the birth of my first born Lia, and sadness on saying goodbye to our Angel, Marsia, my second child. Today I send my prayers to Heaven to my special angel, my special love. I pray to her to continue to watch over her wonderful sister Lia and her son Ethan, to watch over her amazing brothers Nathan and Joshua and his girlfriend Megan especially with the coming of their baby soon. I Pray for you to watch over us all Marsia, all those that love you with a special eye on your mam and me, as I need you so much. Ask the Lord to keep my family safe and well. This week in Oct is always so painful. It is a week when i close my eyes all i see are bad gut wrenching memories, memories i wish never happened. Memories that tear at my heart and soul that make me feel ill. I try to replace them with the 16yrs of happy ,wonderful memories i have of you. But how can I remember even those times without sadness in my heart. I want to see you again, I want to hold you in my arms again, I want to hold you and tell you how much I love you. I want to joke with you, laugh and cry with you, I want to do so many things with you but i cant. I will have to wait till its my time. But for now it is so hard, I miss you each and every day, even the knowing and belief that we will meet again cannot take the pain away. You packed so much into those 16 short years, made more friends than i have in a lifetime. You made so many peoples lives the better for knowing you. you fought a brave fight for your life but it was just too much. I know you never wanted to leave us, but you had to. I will always remember you squeezing my hand as I held it and tried to tell you you would be ok and that i was at your side, at that moment my heart filled up and the tears flowed, It is a moment that I will hold special your last conscious moment and it was of love. You were one of a kind Marsia, a very special young lady. I called you the Richest Girl in the World and that you surely are, rich with so much love and so many friends. The Mary Poppins to the young children and a dear friend to so many. I Love you Marsia and nothing will ever take that away from me. I have those 16years of memories that are mine and no one can take them away. I will meet you again and when I do I will make up for all these years we have been apart. i will squeeze you so hard you will burst. We will have that dance like the one i dreamt we had, to Candle in the Wind and you can whisper the words again from that dream Luv you dad
Posted on: Wed, 22 Oct 2014 10:54:05 +0000
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