Today I woke up feeling confused. Why? Because apparently I still have some questions of my own, like did they ever like me for me? or did they like what I did for them? Why do I have these thoughts in my head? Because I think back on all my conversations with them in my head and thats what it looks like to me. That they only liked me for what I had to say and not who I am. It looks like they only sought me for help and nothing else. I couldnt help but wonder, just how much of all our conversations were real? were they EVER real to begin with? As Im sitting here taking a study break, I just cant stop thinking why do I keep giving only to just be slapped in the face with it? Why do I look out for others but not for myself? because apparently look what it gets me, it gets me nothing but people using me just to their benefit and pretend to only like me just because of what I can do for them. How can I be 24 and this oblivious? Why did I ever think that this person liked me to begin with? Or maybe they thought they liked me for me but in reality they only liked me because of what I did for them. Another question slipped in, why couldnt I have just stopped? I just dont think its fair to constantly give and for what? To have it ALL just come back and bite you ten fold? One last thing before I take my lunch break, maybe I should just change the nature of who I am, I have to stop being so trusting when I meet new people and people I know who will just use you just for their benefit. I think I should do just that...
Posted on: Mon, 15 Sep 2014 00:11:34 +0000
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