Today feels a little difficult for me. Wanting a cigarette BUT I WILL NOT BUY A PACK..... I must remain in Gods will and stay God Centered. The pink cloud definitely left a long time ago.... Yes I have still lost jobs, partners, had friends die, had to let friends go, and I have been sick occasionally... and sometimes the sickness is only in my emotional state. However, with faith in God, a will to survive and a desire to BE better I believe that even when things do not go my way they ARE just as they are supposed to be. As I work on myself my Lord works on the path that is meant only for me..... I pray today to keep the faith, and hope at the center of my being so that I may be the instrument that HE desires.... I hope you all have a GREAT day today. God Bless each and every one..... =) March 30, 2014 God-centeredness Page 92 Gradually as we become more God-centered than self-centered, our despair turns to hope. Basic Text, p. 95 What a glorious thing to have hope! Before coming to Narcotics Anonymous, many of us lived lives of utter hopelessness. We believed we were destined to die from our disease. Many members speak of being on a pink cloud their first months in the program. Weve stopped using, made some friends, and life looks promising. Things are going great. Then reality sets in. Life is still life-we still lose jobs, our partners still leave us, friends still die, we still get sick. Abstinence is no guarantee that life will always go our way. When the reality of life on its own terms sets in, we turn to our Higher Power and remember that life happens the way life happens. But no matter what occurs in our recovery we need not despair, for there is always hope. That hope lies in our relationship with our Higher Power. This relationship, as expressed by the thought in our text, develops over time: Gradually we become more God-centered. As we rely more and more on the strength of our Higher Power, lifes struggles dont have to drag us into the sea of despair. As we focus more on God, we focus less on ourselves. Just for Today: I will rely on my Higher Power. I will accept that, regardless of what happens, my Higher Power will provide me with the resources to live with it.
Posted on: Sun, 30 Mar 2014 18:51:54 +0000