Today is a day, like no other day. I awoke late, of course, and with in just a few moments of waking, I was smacked with the realization of what day this actually was. Most of you know by know by now, October 28, 1996 was a day, which rocked and permanently changed my life forever. On Monday 10-28-96 I was doing my daily things, ie., taking John to work, My son Clifford Workman, to school. My daughter Janie (now May Berry) to Day care, and going to start my first day of a new job at Photoshots, Teays Valley. On my way to work, it was a very rainy day, so I decided to take my son school, after taking John to work. On the way to drop my John off, I hydroplaned into oncoming traffic and was T-boned by an oncoming car. John took pretty much the full brunt of the impact. The doctors and paramedics told me, he died instantly. My son passed two times and was revived both times. My daughter had only a bruise in the shape of Johns hand, on her leg. I was in a comma for a week and then transferred to a rehabilitation hospital. This is where I learned to do everything, read, write, walk, and talk again. My life was destroyed, my ex husband was very little help to me. Not to mention the time he came into my hospital bed and let me know what a piece of crap parent I was and he was taking my kids from me. (Things have changed with us now, this is what was going on at the time. We had only recently divorced.) I did not even know John had passed for about two weeks. My mom tells me, the hospital removed my phone, because I kept saying his parents phone number allowed, in order to keep it in my memory. I had all intentions of calling to find out why My John was not there, where he was, and if he was o.k.. I have very little recollection of anything, at this time. They say it is because of the head injury and the fact that the brain will emotionally shut down/block memories, which are too traumatic to be recalled. I have since moved on. I am blessed to have a kind and loving husband, who understands my emotional roller coaster. He also understands, the fact I try to hide from this day every single year. God, could we please just loose this day? I realize there are Birthdays, anniversaries, etc., on this day, but can I void it out of my life? Anyway, I have once again, written a novel. For this I apologize, but this is what is on my mind today, this is why I am upset today, this is why I will probably not get much done today. I even thought of drinking to block it out, but my intelligence lets me know, this will solve nothing. This day will come, every year. I will never be prepared for it, I will never be able just to go on. This is the day, which changed my life forever. I do not let this day rule me, I will survive. Someday, I will learn, survival is not everything. You will be surprised at what you can live through. Whether you want to or not. God Bless you all, and I pray you never have to deal with the struggles, each of us have. Though I know we will. Perhaps, praying we all find successful ways to get through it, is a better prayer.
Posted on: Tue, 28 Oct 2014 17:59:43 +0000
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