Today is a lil better but these past few days has been tough. Felt like I was falling apart even tho my family was around I just wanted her back and i know thats impossible but i cried all day. Then last night the Mr took me bingo had fun we just donated but it was good. I will honestly the you this, I still feel lost. We had a routine and it was all for her but now I dont do that anymore. When I get home I member shes not here. But still feel that way. At times its so unbelievable shes not here, we had so many plans to grow old together. Now I have to grow old without her.. The funny thing is that on the way to bingo we talked bout her and tears started to flow again but we talked bout when we first start going to the city how I felt so guilty for going and when I would have fun or laugh around that hurt I still have in the pit of my stomach would remind me of her and again I would feel guilty for it. But we talked bout being happy cause she would want us to be. So we played then we was leaving and that church by eagles bingo had a saying on that board..Your guardian angel told you to go. Lol was that for us or what...we was just looking at each other then laughed. Life is hard and full of uncertainty that we take a lot for granted. Tomorrow is not a promise so live love and laugh. And make sure you hug your children and make sure they know just how much you truly love them. My children know that I do and my sweety Angel knows too.... so does my grandchildren. Love you all my fb family and frens...
Posted on: Wed, 06 Aug 2014 20:18:50 +0000
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