Today is a very, very hard day. One of those days where Im just barely holding on with clenched, white fingers. Wish I could go into more detail. Part of it is physical, sure. Part of it is offline stuff I really cant go into detail about. But a big part of why I cant talk about it is that I dont KNOW why Im so upset. Why is today so much worse than yesterday? Why are my coping skills no longer adequate? Why am I FEELING so much (and why are those feelings so negative)? I dunno. I just am. I do know that facebook is contributing to my overwhelm. Signing on and seeing nothing but pain, trauma, oppression, sadness, anger, destruction, death...of course, I dont begrudge the people posting these things (obviously, as Im posting similar material, myself). Other times, Im grateful to those who share their stories, and promote those news items that the traditional, mainstream media sources ignore. But today, I need to take a break. I cant even handle my own pain right now, theres no way I can cope with everyone elses. And I hate that, but I dont know what else to do. Also, I have people who depend on me, and theres no time for me to have a complete breakdown right now. So Im going to be gone for a while. Sorry. Ill still be checking my messages (which, as my phone is still not working, is the only way to get a hold of me, aside from email), but I wont be regularly checking facebook until I can handle life a little better. Much love.
Posted on: Sun, 14 Sep 2014 23:25:57 +0000
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