Today my oldest son and I were talking about the fact that I can’t change the name of this page and how I don’t want to start a new one. I have actually been thinking about the fact that it is called Help find Mackenzie when Mackenzie has already been found and it is too late to save her. I started saying Kisses from Kenzie because I know that if Mackenzie was sitting beside me she would be helping me get the word out about Heroin addiction. I know that she does not want another to struggle with the pain that she was dealing with. I know that she does not want another mom to be dealing with what I am going through. Mackenzie never wanted to see anyone hurting and she has always felt that it was her responsibility to make them all better. So here is my thought, I want Help find Mackenzie to now mean something more. I want her to be someone that you think of when you are struggling with your addiction. I want her to be someone that you think of and say, thanks to Mackenzie, I am realizing that I need to change, I am wanting to change and I am going to do what I have to to change. No, Mackenzie did not recover but she knew that she needed to and she wanted to. She just didn’t get the chance that she needed, but other addicts can. I want loved ones to be able to feel like they can discuss what they are dealing with, that they can talk to others and not feel that they are being labeled or treated differently. I want everybody that needs the help to be able to find it and get it whether it be to deal with their addiction or the addict. I really don’t understand why there is such a stigma towards us. Was I thought of as a horrible parent when you met my daughter? I did not buy it for her, give it to her, do it with her or watch her do it. Did you like Mackenzie when she was around you? Did she make you smile, make you laugh, and come across as polite? Did you know she was using? So why now that she is gone is she thought of differently, (I am guessing she is because she died of an overdose, no one has said that to me directly). Why am I now the parent that made so many mistakes? This has to be what you think about me and the others in the same situation or else you would not shun us. To post that people got what they deserved when they pass because of a heroin overdose (not on my site but on other’s). Why does anyone deserve to leave just because they have gotten themselves into a bad situation? Most of us make stupid choices just not all of us lose our life because of them. Do people ever think about what made the person try to ease their pain in the first place or what caused their pain? Nobody just decides one day to stick a needle in their arm. I am proud of my son for wearing both of his heroin shirts on a regular basis. He wants to get the word out. He is mad that heroin came into our family and took his sister away. I wore my heroin does not discriminate shirt and he wore his heroin sucks shirt today while we ran around. Did people view us differently because of this? If so, oh well. My daughter is gone whether I cower in the corner or shout it from the roof top. I can curl up in a ball or I can speak about it. We have to do something about the apparently secret epidemic that is stealing our children from us. It is not an easy thing to try and help others when I couldn’t help my daughter and keep her here with me but I can’t keep quiet. There are others that can be saved. I don’t want another addict to lose their life. I don’t want another parent to feel my pain. I know that Mackenzie would expect this of me. I must continue, I must speak up, in honor of my precious daughter, Mackenzie. So please, if you are able to, willing to, want to, speak up, speak out, do something. There are unfortunately many out there like us; many dealing with this horrible drug. Help find Mackenzie. Find the courage. Find the strength. Too many have suffered already. Kisses from Kenzie.
Posted on: Thu, 08 Aug 2013 03:23:38 +0000
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