Today was a day that we thought we were going to say goodbye to my Dad, until we meet again. Well, he wasnt ready, the stars didnt align, God wasnt ready to take him, whatever the reason. This is the most difficult process I have ever been through, the emotional roller coaster I feel, the sadness about losing him, the feeling that I dont want him to suffer anymore and the guilt I feel that I wish him to be free of pain and transition to his after life. We all feel that for 88 years he lived his life the way he wanted and was physically and mentally able to live independently. The past 10 months have been horrible for him and us as a family. Going through it has never been easy for us as a family. When we almost lost Mom we were the same way, which I believe its because we have our own feelings and thoughts and fears. However, we always come together when this time occurs, We love each other and depend on each other. I dont know how long my Dad has left. We all pray for two things, he feels no pain and he is at peace. Today, it was obvious that those two things were achieved. His face did not look troubled and he was sleeping peacefully. The nurses at Fort Hudson love Dad almost as much as we do, we thank God every day for the great care he is getting from Stephanie, Patti and Amanda. Just to name a few! Thank You. May God Bless all of you.
Posted on: Fri, 03 Oct 2014 00:18:26 +0000