Today was a pretty rough day for me and I need to vent and I am gonna lay it ALL out there. Tony Moore and I have been on and off for over a year. Things have been hard and things have sucked a lot lately. He has been in and out of the hospital for health issues. One of those reasons he went in was due to an arguement that i started. However, we talked and said we were going to try and work things out and he said he would always be there he wasnt going anywhere he wasnt interested in anyone and that he loved me. We talked last week about where we wanted to live and he called me babe which is what he does. Today he sprung on me that he has been talking to Aspen Sword for the past three weeks and that he has now fallen in love with her. He has told me he hasnt been able to talk to me because he has been in the hospital so much....yet he went to see her and talks to her on a regular and lunch with her on Friday. I wish them the best! P.S. below is the fb message he sent me!. yes i have been distant...i am trying to straighten out my life and to get healthy again. i have been thinking alot and really evaluating me. i want and need to be happy and healthy again. i told u the last time we really talked that i was broken and hurt and mad and everyother emotion...i never thought we woild grow this far apart...in some ways i am scared to even talk to u lately cause it just brings so heart ache to us both..as far as aspen...i dont know where she fits into everything but she helps me to remember the positive things in my life and she has become very special to me..she has encouraged me to get better and encouraged me to get my life right with god. i can understand what u mean when u say u talk to others because they give u what u are missing from me. i dont know how we got here michelle. i want my friend michelle back. we never meant to hurt eachother but i have also realized that the past is never gonna go away from us. i can only give u my friendship. and i will be a good friend to you. and i hope u can be that way with me too. i know its gonna take time and i know u are upset amd hurt and i am sorry. i hope you can understand what i am trying to say...its hard for me to out things together these days...its been hell lately going in and out of the hospital and consta tly feeling like i am stupid and weak. i am not doing to good. my speech, my memory, my personality, everything has changed. the doctors have said my probability for dementia or altzheimers is really high by the time i hit 50. that really freaked me out. i am so scared to die or worse become a vegetable that i have pushed everyone away. and that wasnt right. everything is just so different. as i have been going thru all this i have been in search for my relationship with god and my life and where i am right now.
Posted on: Mon, 24 Nov 2014 09:54:24 +0000
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