Today was a stressful day to me for my visit. A few days ago, I remained in the room when the group of people came to take her to surgery, and though I have been a part of the group on many a patient, to take someone back to surgery, when they came in carrying those oxygen tanks, and all the unplugging and plugging and the chatter and chaos going on, I felt like we were under attack from the Red Army or something! So I learned my lesson, and knew she had surgery this morning. But she looked bad to me this morning, cause fever, looked to be trying to over breath the vent, reddish orange color, and sadly she has bitten her tongue pretty good, so have blood oozing from her mouth. Things I have seen before , but not with my Mama! I left the room when the Red Army arrived and went to just hang out and wait. Then later her nurse told me they were on the way back, so I might wanna leave for a bit and I did. After I started being denied coming back for quite some time, I started thinking surely something bad was going on, so went to get Dalton out of school, cause it was getting late, and called Mike on my way back to the hospital, Mike said he and doctor were talking and he would fill me in when I got there. So... the good news is, that her liver in not dead, like they first thought it might be. But just dusty looking? But told that if the liver has just a little to work with, it may possibly rejuvenate itself. But..... the part that is overwhelming and has me totally freaking out, is he said this may take weeks, possibly after Christmas, before we know if this will happen? That is mind blowing to me! I was told that I wasnt looking at this correctly by one person, but should be excited that she may possibly live? I do want my Mama to live of course! But to have to absorb the fact that she may stay in this critical condition for that long before we get the news, for me is going to be a nightmare! Please pray hard that we get early signs and this will be something seen in days and not weeks? Does anybody understand where I am coming from? I do want my Mama to live but dont want to have to be under the stress of not knowing she will for weeks! So please yall, pray that these signs come much much sooner than that! We were out of about everything regarding groceries, and my laundry has piled up a bit, so I had my fill for the day and had to leave. Got groceries, got laundry going and trying to process all of this! I just needed to have some time to gather my thoughts.
Posted on: Thu, 13 Nov 2014 22:19:41 +0000