Today’s P & W thought: Faith, The Living God and Our Promises Part III… I Have Seen God In My Life Earlier I mentioned that God is Alpha and Omega, He is in control of every detail of our lives. This grief stricken journey has/is shading some more light on God’s characteristics -- that He is God who cares, loving, deliverer, compassionate, provider, comforter, healer etc. This means He is the Great I AM. What does The Great I Am mean? In exodus 3:13 God had asked Moses to go lead the Israelites out of their captivity in Egypt. Moses protested because He didnt think they would believe Him. God said tell them: I Am sent me to you.” “What did God mean by ‘I Am’?” I believe He meant that He is who they needed Him to be. They needed Him to be their DELIVERER that day. They needed Him later to be their GUIDE. Still later on, they needed Him to be their PROVIDER. The Amplified version records what God said. He said, “I Am who I Am and I will be what I will be.” He is the living God who can be trusted to deliver all the problems that we are facing NOW not tomorrow. So how is God I AM to me? Here below are the ways that God put in place to make my challenging journey bearable… 1.God wanted us (David and I) to be on Lulu’s last journey before her death – she hugged me just a few minutes before she went to open the gate. We were in a meeting outside by the garden when I received a phone call. As the meeting was noisy I looked for a quiet place. I could have gone by the garden but instead was led to the dadas house where it was easy for me to see the gate falling. I was at Lulu’s side within seconds of her falling and we took her to the hospital immediately – there was no time wasting 2. God wanted me to remember Lulu the way she was. A small hook attached on the gate is what had hit Lulu. The gate itself didn’t touch her. So either it was the impact of this hook on her head or the impact of her head hitting the ground that caused internal bleeding. She had a small cut at the back of her left ear where she bled from. Now imagine if the gate had crushed her head – would I have been able to carry her in the car? Or if the gate had fallen on her whole body [like the way it fell on dada Tina]. I wouldn’t have been able to lift the gate up on my own, instead I would have been standing there shouting desperately n helplessly calling for help. The sight of my daughter trapped under the gate or her head head open from the crush would have finished me and probably would have been a terrible memory. Instead when I reached her, she was in fetus position, unconscious and had shown no pain at all. 3. God gave me grace to pray for her. I prayed for her as we were rushing to the hospital before she took her last breath and pass away in my arms – I rebuked the spirit of death and I gave her my breathe through her mouth. I did all I thought I had authority to do and still God took her away from me. This convinced me that God wanted her to go and this gave me peace. 4. God lifted up five ladies who lost their children to visit me at different times. Some came with books, tips on what to look out for, avoid and do, others with a word of encouragement. God wanted me to know that this trial is common to man - has happened before to many people and Im not the first time, so will manage it. 5. The day the driver told me the whole story of what happened on that day, I was distraught: Apparently Lulu was very anxious for her new bike to be assembled, so she was chasing the driver around to fix it. [The bike had been bought two days before this]. The driver took the lawnmower to the fundi, when he returned Lulu rushed to open the gate with the gardener so that he could fix her back. Then my son asked the driver to take him to his cousins. When he came back, Lulu rushed to open the gate with dada Tina and thats when it fell on them. I thought how long would it have taken the driver to fix it and avoid her death? why was I going to have the new year eve party, why didnt the gardener cut the grass earlier as all these would have given the driver enough time to fix the bike. This made me cry so much. So I played some praise and worship songs and then I decided to read my whatsapp messages… the 2nd message said this; GOOD MORNING AUNT, LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM,, I WAS WITH LULU, SHE TOOK ME AROUND SHOWING ME HER PLACE, HER SEAT, ITS SHINING. THEN YOU AND UNCLE DAVID SHOWED UP, SHE TOLD ME LOOK AT THEM … TELL THEM IM IN HEAVEN AFTER THAT SHE LEFT. 10 minutes later a lady visited me, I’ve met her once. She was at work but felt a strong push to come and see me. When she asked God what do I tell her as I don’t know how to encourage her, God said tell her “congratulations, Lulu is in heaven”… You can imagine how I felt after hearing these 2 messages… one confirming the other. God was preventing me from blaming myself and others for not preventing the death, as He had planned her life. 6. Last Tuesday would have been Lulu’s first day at school. Between 7am – 8am I was thinking of how excited she would have been to going back to school – She loved her school and everything to do with it [teachers/ friends/homework/monkey bars on the playground]. All these thoughts got me so worked up that I cried uncontrollably for a while. Then I started worshiping the Lord - calling God to help me. In the midst of my crying I received a call from my friend with these news:- Lulu had passed away on Wednesday and she looked ok with no marks on her face. But on Friday when family went to the mortuary, half of her face’s left side had turned completely dark/black [from clotted blood]. This worried them, as they knew I would have been devastated seeing her in that condition. So they looked for makeup to use the following day. They went to the mortuary at 7am on Saturday (the following day) expecting to spend some time making her face look presentable. To their surprise, her face was clear, without any dark traces of blood that they had seen the day before. This amazed everyone who was there even the doctors… remember her body had stopped functioning 3 days before that, which meant she would have been stiff [rigor mortis], but her whole body was soft and limp even her neck was limp as she was being dressed, but the unusual thing was - the dark patch on her face should have appeared the same day of the accident [not 2 days later], and another unexplainable thing was how and why had the blood [dark patch] cleared the following day after it had appeared? And why did blood start oozing out of her left ear that morning – fresh as if she was still alive. They had to change the blood stained cotton wool from her ear thrice [they were even worried that she would still be bleeding during the last respect, but it stopped before she was brought home]. One doctor said it was unexplainable, a miracle, it was just God. I’m not a medical person, but this really reassured me that God is in control, He can do things that even Doctors cant explain. I stopped crying and started thanking God for sending this comforting message to me through a friend. 7. All about Praise & Worship Group – Started on the 29th Nov 2013. I started it because I enjoy sharing the good news [GOSPEL] but I also enjoy music/praise and worship. Im passionate about this and would not want to miss a day from posting a devotional, as I receive a lot of feedback from people who are encouraged by them. Now God is using this group to strengthen me… The page has kept me busy, as I’m still posting devotionals daily. The page has made me look deeper at the scriptures for better understanding of who God is, which will help my spiritual growth. It takes my mind off the trial Im in – very therapeutic. A few people who attended Lulus funeral came and told me they came not because they knew Lulu or me, but from what they read from this page. They were touched and wanted to come and comfort me. God planned for this page well in advance. 8. The timing of Lulu’s passing during Christmas holiday - all the family members were around. My older children got 100% support by having their friends and cousins around them throughout their painful journey. 9. I have received hundreds of messages [phonce calls, sms, whatsapp, emails] that people are praying for me. After this tragedy, sometimes I find it challenging to pray but God has lifted up people to pray for me. On my own I wouldn’t have managed this situation but their prayers have been helpful and Im grateful for that and the prayers are MUCH APPRECIATED. What does all these tell you about God? God is in control of everything and will never leave you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6 I have seen God’s many characters (see below) revealed and I’m still seeing Him providing ways for me to endure this trial whilst keeping my faith intact and shaming the devil. HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT: 2 Cor 12:9 “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me”. Characteristics of God ... 1. LIVING GOD: God who is here and now. THE GREAT I AM…He planned the whole incident for His glory. 2. COMPASSIONATE: As can be seen above, each time I was about to have a breakdown, God would immediately send a comforting / reassuring message either through a dream, whatsapp, sms or a person will come to visit us. 3. LOVING: God wanted me to remember Lulu the way she was – He worked on her face by removing the clotted blood. And He wanted to show everyone, even Doctors that He can do miracles – FRESH blood oozed in the morning in their presence. He also made sure it was a small metal that hit her, so no marks on her face to show she was in pain. 4. COMFORTER: Sending people with a word of encouragement, books, scriptures and inspirational quotes. Showing me that others have been through it and endured it with His help. Also the timing of the incident - when all family members were around. 5. HEALER: He made me understand the purpose of the death – that I should focus on Lulu’s Life and not Lulu’s loss… this gave me so much peace and healing is easier now. 6.CARING: I was present to witness the accident and didnt waste time to take her to the hospital – I can’t blame anyone that there could have been some delays in attending to her. 7. PEACE GIVER: through my prayers, I did all I thought I could possibly do to prevent her passing but God still took her away from us. This means God had a purpose for her. 8. God didnt want us (David and I) to miss a minute of her last journey. I could have decided to answer my phone by the garden and missed seeing the gate falling. Both parents were there for her. 9. SUPERNATURAL: Miracle at the mortuary on Saturday Today, wherever you are, whatever you’re facing, God is who He is and will be who He will be to you. If you need a fortress from your circumstances, He will be that for you. If you need peace, He will be your peace. If you need hope, He will be your hope. If you need healing, He will be your healer. If you need help, He will be your very present help in your time of need. If you need provision, He will be your provider. If you need strength to face the day, He will be your strength. God came down in my situation as He said He would and is slowly restoring my family. If God did that for me 2 weeks ago, He can meet your need this week. He still listens to our prayers and is still the Great I Am. Lamentation 3:5-26: “The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord” Who do you need Him to be for you today? Have a Fantastic Friday Friends …
Posted on: Fri, 16 Jan 2015 06:27:44 +0000
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