Tonight a year ago my Daddy and Mama lay side by side holding hands through the night as I lay on the couch. This time to say goodbye meant so much to EvelynandArnold Robinson. Daddy was so satisfied he said what he needed tomorrow evening a year ago that he drew his last breath and went to be with Jesus. Mama left this earth to join him May 10th this year. I so selfishly wanted her longer. She tried so to be happy here without him. She helped me through some rough months, but she thought I helped her. I think I needed her more. I was so blessed for that time with her being able to walk well and go to church and hang outside for cookouts and planting flowers with Riley, so much more. She helped me keep Daddy alive in my heart, our hearts, while she was hurting so bad. Now I get to hurt for her alongside beginning again with hurt for Daddy, like it is a fresh open wound. But, time will pass & hopefully it will ease. Even seeing them everyday, I didnt fully understand those two people. I thought I did & I know I loved them. Daddy and Mama loved their family so much, but most of all-above all-through the good and the bad-they loved each other. No matter if they had words or someone else saw them a little ornery with each other, she was his and he was hers. No one or nothing else could compare to that. They could say something stern to each other, but another better not. They understood each other. She wasnt just a lady-but his lady. He wasnt just a man-but her man. When she hurt he hurt and when he hurt she hurt. There is no doubt they are in heaven together because above their love for each other they had both accepted Jesus in their heart, such an innocent unconditional love for the Father like what they had for each other. No tumor or sickness could override what was written in the lambs book of life. I will never stop loving you Mama and Daddy. All what I didnt know and all of what I thought I knew was nothing and now with you gone, I fully get and understand it all, I understand you. I told you I love you many times & I told you it was despite anything & I meant it, but there were times as a younger person and daughter I still didnt get where you were coming from & now that you are gone-I do understand. Mama, to go back and read how your back hurt when I was 14 and how you prayed for Daddy and us kids and exalted God too just shows me so much I didnt know then. And Daddy, to live now and see what you always tried to tell me, wow...I could go on and on. But, I bet many daughters and sons feel this way in the new painful era of life without their parents. I will tell you all about it one day when I see you over yonder, then we can all worship and praise all day without the cares and hurts of this flesh and our feeble minds and this world. Thanks for what yall taught me. If you were here I would say all this, but I know you are busy being happy in heaven & thats ok.
Posted on: Sat, 28 Jun 2014 06:36:37 +0000
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