Tonight is one of those nights Im kinda doubting myself. Last time I felt like this I didnt really tell anybody nd Im pretty sure it led to a bit of depression so I think Ill share my thoughts this time. Im sitting here in Hudson, WI at the TA, in 0 degree weather listining to a few idiot drivers arguing about politics. I have a load tomorrow that goes to Modesto, CA..... BUT Im only taking it to IL to a train yard and the load will be taken to CA by train. Originally I was supposed to take the load to CA but the planners had last minute plans.... This is the second time this has happened to me in the short time Ive been with this company. Is this really where the industry is headed? Also the last couple days Ive ran into bad winter weather, and saw MANY tractor trailer wrecks and wondered is that inevitable? Is it only a matter of time before a 4 wheeler does something stupid and I decide to put it in a ditch possibly hurting or killing myself, over hurting of killing somebody else? I wont go into to much detail about this, but another thing really got me thinking, but about 2 weeks ago, a mentally ill woman jumped off in front of my truck at night in a suicide attempt, and I hit her (thats all the detail Im ever going to go into that, please dont pry on that subject)...maybe this is just a case of the winter blues I do get to feeling like this every single winter Ive been in a truck....it just seems like of it can go wrong, it will. But it just seems like only a VERY select few make it as an OTR driver for a long length of time before something happens that jeopardized their career. My entire driving career Ive always had the thought of going local in my head, but Im not sure Id enjoy doing that for very long..... When things go right as an OTR driver, I feel as if this is the best job on earth, but when things dont go right, it feels like chain reaction of shit hits the fan for a while and I cant seem to get out a slump.... Im not depressed, just being alone with my thoughts with the recent events That had happened to me or that Ive witnessed has got my mind racing. Do any of you ever feel like this?
Posted on: Fri, 09 Jan 2015 01:50:45 +0000
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