Transparent moment: many didnt knw that after my divorce, I was silently depressed, I continued to love & support my children, I took care of the house, I went to work everyday all while still being an active member at church. On the outside, I smiled & on the inside I cried, I was broken & lost. Over these past 3 years, God began to reveal me to myself. I made a decision to trust him & the process of dying to myself, I gave up everything to move back in with my parents & focus on me & start over. I made a lot of emotional decisions that led to more disappointments & attachments to people who used me & took me for granted, but Gods hand was still upon me! Although I didnt see or understand it, he was molding me into the woman he created me to be! He had to teach me how to be totally devoted to him, not just quoting scriptures but applying them to my life. Did I fall short, yes, did he still love me, yes., did I deserve it, no. I had to realize whose I was, in order to understand who I was! Nobody wants to suffer, but everyone wants a blessing, Im finally at a place where Im being restored, no longer sad, ashamed, afraid, broken, angry, bitter, confused & lost! Im full of joy, peace, confidence, boldness, self love & forgiveness! To God Be The Glory, hes the reason I dont look like what Ive been through, there were many times I wanted to give up, but God! He kept me, even when I didnt wanna be kept! Hallelujah, Lord I thank you! I pray that this reaches whoever it was meant for & that you believe, God loves you! Im excited & full of expectations because My Greater Is Coming! Thank you Abba Father, never wouldve made it without you!
Posted on: Fri, 31 Oct 2014 11:23:13 +0000
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