Trick or Treat, Fall festivals, hat rides, leaves changing colors, temperature dropping...then rising, Thanksgiving and the county fair just around the corner, all of these are simple signs that The season of Fall is upon us and the 2014 year is drawing to an end. As these days approach, most people are in anticipation of getting ready for the hustle and bustle of the busy holiday season. Me, on the other hand, wishes I could fast forward the next little bit of time. Halloween has come and gone this year, another first without our Mattie. And as usual, recalling the events of last year with her rips my heart out, but at the same time brings a smile to my face. You see, last year she wanted a rabbit costume. Well not being able to find what she specifically wanted, mama here SOWED her one. Yes! Thts right! I sowed it. But the problem was Im NOT a sower. Needless to say, the outfit worked but she wasnt too happy with me for a little bit. Yesterday too holds such a significant place in my heart. I could go on and on and tell story after story of how she LOVED this time of year. Carving pumpkins, decorating for Fall and soon Christmas, baking, all of these things brought such pleasures to her heart. Yesterday, being the first Sunday in November, the actual date is today though, was the last time my Mattie walked. She hadnt walked in a while and today a year ago, she looks at me and her daddy and said I wanna walk. I would live to share the pictures and videos of this time, but they are just too much exposure. I remember feeling like I couldnt breathe and I wanted to cry, shout, and jump....all of which I did do! But we were just so taken back because she couldnt even hold her little head up much less walk, but she still had the fight deep within her. It was the absolute sweetest thing for her to also look at us and struggle to say I wanna bounce with my baby sister and carve a pumpkin with her too. This was all coming from such a sick little girl whose body had been invaded by a monster, but her wants, desires, heart, and soul couldnt be invaded with such sickness. That day a year ago ignited a fire of hope in every one of us. We knew that although the circumstances didnt LOOK good, we couldnt base our faith on what we were seeing. In the next upcoming days of this week a year ago is when she told me she knew God was going to heal her because 1 Peter 2:24 tells us mama that by His stripes we are healed. Hes gonna heal me! She also reminded me in this upcoming week a year ago of her favorite verse Matthew 19:26 when she said to me mama with men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. I am gonna get better. And boy did she get better. I would have never thought one year ago today as I helped my baby girl walk across that living room floor that that would be the last time ever her walking here on Earth. The next time her feet hit the floor she wasnt just waking, she was running!! Running into the arms of Jesus!!! No one could have ever made me believe that in only 13 days my Mattie would be meeting Jesus face to face. I wonder how many of us would be different if we knew we only had 13 days left? Would we go somewhere special, or buy something big? Would we say an extra Im love you! Or get all of the Im sorrys out of the way? And where would Jesus fit in? Or would He even have a place? My advice....DO NOT wait to see if you have 1, 5, or 13 days left!! We are NONE guaranteed our next breath, much less another day! Make this one count!! Mattie, mama misses you baby girl. I cant wait to hear all about your first Trick or Treat heaven style. But I really cant wait to hear about how you have ran, not just walked, through the streets of gold!! I love you more than the ocean has water and the beach has sand! And I miss you MOST!!
Posted on: Mon, 03 Nov 2014 11:39:10 +0000
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