Trying to be Wonder woman never worked for me. I just cant cope with the house work, hospital visits, cooking, and being resident taxi to the world, and then bookkeeper,and teacher about all of this, too. All while worrying about How I am being perceived by Drs, social workers and the other parent suddenly on the scene. After yesterday I see there ARE people who are watching to see what I do. They whisper about how I react and handle the situations coming at me at zooming speed either judge me harshly by taking me to the side and speak in quiet whispers or outright tell me I have no say in anything but am still expected to do all the above with ease. OMG I better be strong, and show no sign of weakness because then the word lawyer comes up and I still have no legal say in ANYTHING but I am supposed to still do it all. I ask If I do not, WHO WILL? So in the midst of all of this I have greater respect for my family and friends who is REALLY there to support my daughter and myself and her son. They are not pointing fingers, they make lists and delegate, and get it done. They feed me, slip me a couple of bucks and really help. FEELINGS have nothing to do with the reality of the situation. Tina probably will not pull through this. We need to braces ourselves and keep on keepin on. I really do not care about legal anything...I have NEVER cared about it. I am surprised it makes a difference, I am motivated by love not legality. That might bite me in the ass. Her real mom shows up after YEARS of not being there and takes over. I have no say. I feel powerless and I see SUCKER written all over my forehead. Because in the end It will be me, here, takin care of business, and still loosing a child. I know GOD knows. THAT is my peace. JUST SAYIN.
Posted on: Tue, 11 Mar 2014 13:40:20 +0000
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