Two years ago, today, I went in for my first ultrasound to see if I was carrying twins. Two sweet beings had been communicating with me for weeks, and I was sure Id see two lil bodies in that scan... The day before, I stopped hearing one of those beings, and although so very happy to see a healthy cub, was heartbroken that his sister had energetically and physically disappeared. The dichotomy of joy and sadness was confusing and overwhelming. Two years ago, today, I realized I was going to be a single mom, and resolved myself to that with not nearly as much grace as Id care to admit. Two years ago, today, there was a horrific shooting in a movie theater and I cried wondering how I could possibly bring a child into this world. Two years ago, today, I was comforted and reassured by someone who has always known how to hold space for me; and I knew beyond a doubt Id be more than alright. Two years ago, today, I quietly celebrated my moms birthday, and had a long talk with her spirit about all of my fears and dreams and I heard her tell me if she could do it, surely so could I. Today is wrought with intense emotions for me that are bigger than words or sounds or images. So I will be quiet, and quite preferably unreachable, and spending a ton of time cuddling my most precious of gifts.
Posted on: Sun, 20 Jul 2014 18:24:08 +0000
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