UNFAILING GOD Though sorrow is my condition And pain holds back no blow Though this be my darkest hour Your love is leading me home You’ll find me saying You are unfailing God Your love is unending Your Word is eternal Firm in the heavens it stands. Good morning Lord Jesus. That’s about all that I have the strength to say. There is more fear and doubt than normal today. I know that You are speaking to my heart about the condition of my soul and body. I ask You Holy Spirit to understand, first to myself, and then be able to express to my friends what is going on with me. I recognize first Lord, that You are not a God to beat me up and ignore me because I made some bad decisions yesterday that are affecting me today. I didn’t act, I reacted to some things. When I woke up this morning I ws so tired I could hardly talk. All I wanted to do was go back to sleep. My body was screaming for rest. That usually doesn’t happen to me early in the morning, I usually wake up ready, excited for another day. There are some days when I have binged that I have dragged myself to this computer, but today that wasn’t the case. My health is okay, the blood sugars are normal, so it wasn’t a self inflicted problem. Or was it??? Yesterday was a whirlwind day for me. If I told you what I did yesterday, even you would say WOW!!! Everything HAD to be done. Or did it??? There were also some important things that didn’t get done. Not because I didn’t want to, but there are only so many hours in the day. I had to decide what was more important. That’s where I was wrong. That’s where I need to repent and ask the Lord Jesus to forgive me. I recognize this morning what happened. As I am beginning to get some strength back, my understanding is clearer. I can’t think of one thing that I did that seems wrong. Everything seemed important. How do you choose? It seems like I got into a gerbil type mentality. Somewhere in the busyness of yesterday, I went from step by step to running hard, into overdrive. Now I can see times that I should have stepped off that spinning wheel. The time that one of my dear friends told me that her daughter had died the night before. My heart was broken for her. But I had to get to the other place fast, some one was pacing the floor waiting for me. I couldn’t make them angrier, I had to meet their demands. I prayed for my friend, I hurt for their family. What would Jesus have done? He would have stopped everything for them. The anxious activity would have to wait. He would have knelt down and written in the sand as everyone around Him hollered and screamed, anxious for an action. Do you feel as though you are on a spinning wheel? Where is the extra time, time to settle down, be sensitive to the Holy Spirit, time that you put the important things first and on purpose? I ask You Lord Jesus to give me a clearer understanding and direction for where I spend my time. I ask you Holy Spirit that I would have the courage and understanding to say yes and amen when necessary and remain peaceful and purposeful. Help me be brave enough to stop, look and listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit as He says go here, do this, don’t do this. I am today making a conscious decision to follow You and You alone, Holy Spirit. I need more direction, there are so many things screaming for my time. I know this, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard you hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7. I love you guys. Mary Ann
Posted on: Tue, 04 Mar 2014 10:48:35 +0000
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