UPDATE: EXCITEMENT is in the air. Taking Mom back for results of latest pet scan. This could be the closing of a hard but victorious chapter in her life as well as ours. If all test are good Momma has decided to no longer due the maintenance treatments. This has been 23 months of the unknown. Only sure thing we did know was that God was in control and his will would be done. It was hard for me to accept the fact that Mom had cancer at first. The real shock wave came when they told us she had two types of cancer and the one had consumed 60 % of her bones. The first 4 seconds were overwhelming but God stepped in. He placed in my heart to tell her that we will take God and his 40% any day. Some how she became calm and I could mentally, physically & emotionally prepare myself, as well as I knew how for the journey ahead. For some human reason I tried to place a limit on God. Going over and over in my head that God could handle the lymphoma but that follicular would be a tough cookie. Then that spiritual being would step in and tell me to WAKE UP, this was GOD we are talking about. LOL There are so many levels of emotions that the patient and loved ones around them endure. From anger, to sadness, guilt, self pity, boldness to fight, moments of fear, faith unshakeable, time of rest & peace, weakness, surrender, helplessness & being able to be thankful. It is more than a roller coaster ride that seems to never end. You become that cancer whether you wanted to or not. People define you by that sickness. Questions are no longer ask about your children, grand children, spouse, new job, community group, etc. They only know how to ask about your disease that has consumed more than just your body. Dont be angry with them. It is unfamiliar waters for them also. They dont want to be rude and are not sure what is acceptable to say. LIFE CHANGING, total understatement. But praise him for days of ability to speak, to see, to hear and to touch. Praise him for his true love and healing power. Praise him for the moments that proved his love for you before you were even born. Praise him for his long suffering and your short time of afflictions. Above all, Praise him because he is worthy. Not sure what the next few hours hold for Mom. Only God has wrote those pages. We pray that it is the end to a long chapter of her life and the beginning of great works to come. Blessed beyond what we could imagine. I can look back and say that I am thankful for Moms sickness, it has made me a stronger Christian. He has showed me how to hold on to hope when all else in gone. He has showed me true compassion in a world full of selfishness. Mom has been a true soldier in all of this and Dad an outstanding helpmate. She just has another chapter in her book about MAMA GUMP! Mom says, this is her song now: youtu.be/RS2j3A8vH7I
Posted on: Mon, 28 Jul 2014 15:07:17 +0000