UPDATE: Its been a while since an update, and I apologize. Things have been crazy and its hard to take the time to emotionally write down the current situation. My Daddy has gotten considerably worse. He is bed ridden and can hardly move. His body has deteriorated to skin and bones. Its shocking to see someones body lack have muscle and fat and just see skin sagging in its place. My Dad hardly opens his eyes now, asleep or awake. He sleeps for almost the whole day so the moments we spend with him awake are very special. He is in pain a lot and when you do something as simple as hugging him, he moans in pain. He hardly eats anything, and is forgetting how to chew/swallow. My Daddy cant talk much anymore. Just a few mumbles here and there usually not making sense. His memory of people is fleeting and the rare moments that he hears and recognizes my voice or says my name which is so cherished. The Lord has been so present in all of this. To see Him make Himself known is amazing and I am so thankful for it. I could not get through this if it wasnt for my Heavenly Father. Without Him I could never be strong enough. I am however struggling a lot with this, obviously. School is a burden I desperately wish I didnt have. Trying to pay attention in class, do a project, read a book is the impossible task. The thought of when I get the phone call that I need to come home consumes my mind. When I laugh with joy I am immediately reminded of the sadness that consumes my heart. I cant even be with friends and family without having melt downs in the middle of conversations. All I want to be is at home with him all the time, but I am reminded that as much as I want to, life, with or without my Daddy, must go on. The time is nearing soon. We think maybe a week or so. I have no idea what I, or anyone who loves my Daddy, am going to do when he is gone. All I am feeling now will be intensified, which is a scary thought. We are all starting to break down as the time nears. Please continue in prayers for me, my brothers, and especially my Mom. Things to pray for: -Healing for my Dad -Spiritual guidance for my Dad -Peace and Comfort over him -All pain would be alleviated -Guidance from The Lord for all of us -Faith in our God -Focus in school/jobs/life -Strength -Complete Reliance on God As I always say, encouragement is always welcomed. We love receiving cards/letters/pictures in the mail. Feel free to do so. 8118 Cedar Vista Dr San Antonio TX 78255 I also want to make sure I make it known that you all have been amazing. The community of love in all of this is breathtaking. That is one of the biggest ways Ive seen God in all of this is through the love of people. Whether its through my Phi Lamb Sisters, friends, family, and even strangers. The support is so appreciated. Its been beautiful to see people step up and really love me in ways I need it. Ive grown close to people I never thought I would, and prayed over by people I dont even know. Words cant explain the gratitude I have for you all. Thank you all so much for loving me and my family in this hard time. God is so good. He has blessed me with incredible people such as yourselves. I could never do this without all of you. Thank you.
Posted on: Sun, 28 Sep 2014 00:24:13 +0000
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